I started this year off full of excitement and joy about
moving to a new city and having a new job and being closer to my ride or die
Ms. Belcher. I was over joyed to be making good money and to walk into a fresh
new environment but several weeks I realized that I had been fooled and been
kissed by Judas, so in good form as always I readjusted got a new job stayed
kind even though I had seen what was behind the veil and continued on even
offering my support to my replacements while hinting to them to run as fast as
they could. I created exactly what I wanted nice home, peace of mind, NO
OBLIGATION, heading in the right way finically, great job and even though my
friends were a little far away instead of adjusting closer to them I allowed
misery to stay my normal and for loneliness to creep in and then BAM, the unexpected
happened. Sovereignty, God’s facts, God’s promises, God’s word, God’s truth, It
is finished, absolutes, alpha and omega- all the core principles of my being in
who I am were silenced because my grandpa had a stroke. Four months later I still
can’t tell you what that did to me in that moment. While I know I am loved by
friends and family there is something about this man, this figure, this being
in my life. He represents a truth, solidarity, a principle: He represents good.
Not celebrity good, or glamour good, or swag good but purity good. Not sacrificial,
not applaudable, not notable, not recognizable, not acknowledgement just good. I don’t know of any other person like this. I
wanted to grieve alone, in silence, in my own way not feeling the pain, not
being bothered not running or hiding just my own escape to deal with what I needed
to get, and I couldn’t even grieve alone. I’ve learned even more how alone I am,
I knew I was to myself just me and God but this definitely seals the deal. For
if a man can’t even grieve alone there must not be any place to lay his head in
silence. So from here I examine my
surroundings and I look at those who call my name, don’t come for the party if
you cant stay for the silence. Now that I am back to me I will still grieve by
setting up boundaries because once again the fundamental fact is that trust is
a place, emotion, feeling, journey that is only reserved for God because no man
can walk down that road with you…. #LoveYourselfFirst
...Dying To Live...
...Be An Original...
Friday, December 18, 2015
Saturday, May 30, 2015
Lessons My Mother Taught Me
I have decided to remove the word hypocrite from my vocabulary because I believe that we are all a work in progress because we are all constantly changing, improving and rearranging who we are. People are the ones who try to put labels on us and tell us how we should function and fit and operate. It really does bind us up not to explore our inner selves and be free to walk in whatever we feel comfortable at the time. Don’t take on the dogma that you can’t be flexible with even in your own being and your own soul. Know that life is not about being tied down to one thing or one conviction but instead the beauty in the journey is to openly admit that you don’t have it all together and you probably never will be for each experience and growth you can be ok with being whoever you are whenever you are and at whatever place you’re at without explaining yourself to anyone. It’s your process and it’s your journey and not everyone can accept you on every level you are and that is ok. Be ok with not everything being ok and at the same time trust the process of life because what I know for sure is that nothing in life stays the same and most of the time it even gets better. Love Jesus with your whole soul and let everything else fall into place... #BeGoodToYourself
Sunday, May 17, 2015
Calling yourself out
Being stuck in a mindset or a flow that isn't
Monday, May 11, 2015
Too Much To Live For
It’s been a while since I have sat down and wrote anything
because I have been so busy and really words haven’t come together in the
correct sentences that I would have liked in order to rise from the pages and
communicate my thoughts. I had to walk through some personal pain and just get
through it every day by choosing not to have regret but rather to say, believe
and receive this statement: All things are lessons that God would have us to
learn regardless if they come to us uninvited or if we invite ourselves into
uninvited places. The hardest part about being a teacher when it comes to
anything but especially when it comes to spiritual issues is that you are
required to live what you teach and to believe that what your saying is not
just some get by quote that will make you feel better but rather it is absolute
truth with an unchanging depth of honesty and reward.
I’m learning so much right now in my life and as I continue
to step forward, move forward and embrace what I want to define me I am flowing
in a rhythm unapologetically and without excuses. If it happens regardless of
how it feels in the moment I say to myself “What is this here for” recognizing that
there is a lesson in everything even if the lesson is to teach you disappointment
from others behaviors. I am now trying to condition myself to pray for their
depravity rather than allowing it to create bitterness in me. At the cross of
Jesus we all die to everything about ourselves: Our views, our perspectives and
most importantly our egos. What we want and think must die at the cross of
Jesus in order for us to live. People may be able to try to make your physical
comfort uncomfortable but remember no one can get in your mind. Your mind is
where your imagination is allowed to be free and where your dreams are allowed
to live fully without limitations. People, situations and life may try to break
you down but remember all things are lessons that God would have you to learn. #BeGoodToYourself
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
You Played To Win... #BeGoodToYourself
Galatians 6:9 ..And let us not grow
weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up…
Trusting in Jesus Christ understanding for your life may be
one of the hardest journeys anyone of us must face especially when we are
taking the first step down a new road of letting go and turning the unknown
over to God. We have held on so long and it’s been so familiar that even in our
moving forward or wanting to move forward we find ourselves nervous, anxious,
worried or heartbroken over the thing that has caused us a lot of pain, misery
and regret because the essence of our souls cry out to make or hope or want
that thing to work out. We look directly at it and we know that it can’t work
because the weight of carrying the load any further just might kill us but we
know that if we walk away the lack of control that the other person, idea,
movement, experience or feeling will die and collapse within itself. Here’s the
truth: there’s no easy answers to putting our pain in recovery and moving
forward. It’s going to hurt like hell, it’s going to make you cry, it’s going
to knock you to the floor and many days you’re not going to want to go on because the dream you wished for so bad didn’t work out. While you will always
have the scar of that ‘thing’ and while it’s hard to sit back and watch it die,
move on or not be attached to you anymore know that your assignment in life isn’t
over and you can dream again. I think the key in the early days is just to take
it moment by moment without causing yourself anymore damage. The thing that was
unhealthy that was a part of your co- dependency needs to be replaced with
something that is healthy while you work through the entire process of letting
it go and trusting God fully. Remember not being obedient to God is a sin, so if
this thing in your life is not the perfect will of God in your life then you
are being disobedient and if that’s the case then how will you ever know what
real joy is and wouldn’t it be a tragedy to live your whole life and miss out
on the very best that God has for you. I’m not saying it’s going to be easy at
all, but let your obsession be redirected to your relationship with God rather
than keeping it in the thing that you constantly have to question. Remember you
gave it your all. Just like there are no guarantees in life, you can’t have any
regrets because you played to win.
Friday, February 27, 2015
#KeepMakingJesusFamous
James 1:12 “Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under
trial for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life which
God has promised to those who love him”
The letter of James in the New Testament is popularly known
as the “Proverbs of the New Testament” because the book has practical,
biblical, and Holy Spirit inspired wisdom that is given to the believers in
order that they may hold fast and true to the glorification of the gospel of
Jesus Christ. This letter is an early testament and could probably be argued as
written within a decade after the ascension of the messiah. James encourages us
in many biblical ways: to control our
tongue, submit to God’s will, and have patience and to live an authentic life
for Christ. As the biological younger brother of Jesus he wants the reader to
understand that to live for Christ is a wise decision and to stay active in
your faith will produce spiritual fruits and will demonstrate your faith in
action.
What we see in James 1:12 is that there are key fundamental
biblical principles for the Christian walk that James breaks down for a person
who is walking their own journey of Christian faith and also for the church at
large as we walk together as brothers and sisters in Christ. First he says that
the person who remains steadfast under trail will be blessed because that
person refused to give up or be dismayed in the journey but rather kept their
eyes and focus on Jesus Christ. See here is the thing as believers in the road
of faith it will get difficult, impossible and the journey will a lot of times
seem and feel like you’re on the wrong road but in those moments we must learn
to fully trust the moving of the Holy Spirit to do his job and so when we are
under trial we need to remain in the trust of Jesus’ care so we can be blessed.
What we need understand fully is that being blessed may come during and from
suffering but it will always result in the glorification of the Gospel and for
our own personal good because Jesus can do anything but lie so if he tells us
that if we remain steadfast we will be blessed then we must be willing to
believe God even when it doesn’t feel or look that way.
The second part of this verse is key to because it gives us
a bigger picture and it helps us as believers to look forward to heaven and our
reward for the weary road of faith and it gives us assurance that what we
endure will not be in vain. Listen faith is hard because you’re believing things
that seem and look impossible but we have to be willing to trust the Holy
Spirit. If you love Him, Jesus Christ, then we must be willing to give 100% as
believers regardless of the results and you must know as a conviction in your
personal self-constitution that NOTHING you do for the Lord is in vain.
My hope for you as you read this is first and foremost you
would get over yourself and you would learn to die to your own personal gains
in order to fully embrace and enjoy your service to the Lord because He alone
has great plans for you as you grow and serve Him, you will love and know Him
more and in that you will find personal fulfillment and joy. When we do that in
our individual lives it will help us in our church lives because once we all
realize that the only CEO is Jesus and that before Him we all are fully guilty
then we will all be willing to work together and realize were all on the same
team instead of working against one another. Your only calling in life is to
make Jesus famous and if you get out of that lane then you will find yourself
in a lot more trouble than you think. #MakeJesusFamous
Thursday, February 19, 2015
Don't Miss The Boat
2 Corinthians 4:5 “For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but
Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake.”
As the apostle Paul continues his writing of the book of Corinthians
he is facing several challenges in his ministry so he urges the church to be “unified”
with him in his ministry because the opponents of the gospel were undermining
his work claiming that his suffering proved he was not a true apostle. They didn’t
understand that his suffering was a reflection of the gospel being glorified
because every time Paul was persecuted he looked to Jesus Christ as his only
help admitting, confessing and leaning on Him for total dependency.
Paul dedicates and emphasizes chapter four with a theme of
unity throughout the sentences. He wants the church to understand basic Christian
principles when it comes to ministry because he does not want people to get
distracted by foolishness, pride, control or selfish behavior because he knows
that pride comes before the fall and that anytime anyone takes credit for
something done rather than giving Jesus all the glory then slowly the life will
be sucked out of that ministry until the strong hands of wickedness choke and
kill the dream that best proclaims the gospel.
“For what we proclaim is not ourselves”- in this statement
here alone we need to note that all people are equal when it comes to ministry
because everyone now knows that the work has nothing to do with them personally
but everything to do with Jesus Christ alone and that nothing: no credit, no
positions, no roles, ABSOLUTLEY NOTHING has to do with anyone but Jesus Christ.
This is the vision statement so people are not confused on what the goal is
because the only goal in any ministry that is biblical is to preach and
proclaim Jesus Christ thus allowing the people to die to themselves and their
ideas and to focus all the glory on Jesus Christ.
“With ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake”- as slaves
and bondservants to the master, king, ruler and CEO of sovereignty we now
confess and make it a part of our makeup as a person and put the foundation of
our convictions and self-constitution as willing, obedient and joyous slaves to
Christ in serving in ministry. We understand that we owe God everything and
that without him we are nothing and in that we are satisfied with whatever and
however he decides to focus his ministry. We lean on him for total control and
we refuse to get caught up in the confusion and works of the devil through disobediences,
pride, selfishness, slander and malice because all of that will lead to an end
in the blessing of the ministry of the Church that he has called all sanctified
believers to follow.
The
bottom line is this once you get past the theological unfolding of terms,
phrases and meanings the apostle wants the church to come fully together and be
totally unified on every level because he knows that it is so easy to get
distracted because every people is totally depraved and the depravity of each person’s
life has the chance to show up and fall in line with the wickedness of the
devil and take focus off of giving Jesus Christ the glory. So from the beginning
he says get over yourselves, its not about you, its all about Christ and His
glory. So if your going to sign up to be a billboard for Jesus understand that
your imperfections may cause you the war if you allow them to while fighting
the battle so understand the depth of your depravity and when you see your ego
rising up bleed the blood of Jesus over yourself so you don’t allow yourself to
get in the way of bringing all the glory to Jesus Christ alone.
#BeGoodToYourself
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