At a certain point in life and maybe it’s several times in
our lives we find ourselves pushing through an emotional issue that seems to
have left us helpless in our feelings. The moment when you gave it all over and
over again and you still saw no sign of life. In fact many times over you gave
up your own life and happiness and allowed that to change the very nature of
who you were; the unsecure pain of emotionless love left you lifeless, sullied,
and damaged good. You discovered that your pride wasn’t as strong as you
assumed and the walls of your strength weren’t as solid as you thought. Your teachings,
writings and advice all came into your life to instruct you and you failed your
own test. You were challenged at your core and instead of taking ALL of the
lessons into effect you only brought one tool into battle because you now know
you really didn’t want to see the truth. It’s hard when you have to admit to
yourself that you didn’t want to see the truth because the distraction of the
moment was keeping you from facing what was really going on inside of you and
now you have to deal with the broken pieces of that course and the core of the sadness
of the self-imposed betrayal. The only thing that I think you can do as you
battle your new view of sadness because you will grieve the loss is give it
time and give yourself time to heal. And as you walk through the valley of the
shadow death call be honest with God and yourself as you turn over each new
leaf so you won’t have to repeat the same mistakes again. Remember pain,
regret, guilt and sadness are all apart of living and you’re not the first
person to travel those roads and you won’t be the last to say “why did I do
that”; but you can say to yourself “I will never do that again”….. Relax, Pray and
Hope for the best… #BeGoodToYourself
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