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I started this year off full of excitement and joy about moving to a new city and having a new job and being closer to my ride or die Ms. Belcher. I was over joyed to be making good money and to walk into a fresh new environment but several weeks I realized that I had been fooled and been kissed by Judas, so in good form as always I readjusted got a new job stayed kind even though I had seen what was behind the veil and continued on even offering my support to my replacements while hinting to them to run as fast as they could. I created exactly what I wanted nice home, peace of mind, NO OBLIGATION, heading in the right way finically, great job and even though my friends were a little far away instead of adjusting closer to them I allowed misery to stay my normal and for loneliness to creep in and then BAM, the unexpected happened. Sovereignty, God’s facts, God’s promises, God’s word, God’s truth, It is finished, absolutes, alpha and omega- all the core principles of my being in who I am were silenced because my grandpa had a stroke. Four months later I still can’t tell you what that did to me in that moment. While I know I am loved by friends and family there is something about this man, this figure, this being in my life. He represents a truth, solidarity, a principle: He represents good. Not celebrity good, or glamour good, or swag good but purity good. Not sacrificial, not applaudable, not notable, not recognizable, not acknowledgement just good.  I don’t know of any other person like this. I wanted to grieve alone, in silence, in my own way not feeling the pain, not being bothered not running or hiding just my own escape to deal with what I needed to get, and I couldn’t even grieve alone. I’ve learned even more how alone I am, I knew I was to myself just me and God but this definitely seals the deal. For if a man can’t even grieve alone there must not be any place to lay his head in silence.  So from here I examine my surroundings and I look at those who call my name, don’t come for the party if you cant stay for the silence. Now that I am back to me I will still grieve by setting up boundaries because once again the fundamental fact is that trust is a place, emotion, feeling, journey that is only reserved for God because no man can walk down that road with you…. #LoveYourselfFirst

Lessons My Mother Taught Me

I have decided to remove the word hypocrite from my vocabulary because I believe that we are all a work in progress because we are all constantly changing, improving and rearranging who we are. People are the ones who try to put labels on us and tell us how we should function and fit and operate. It really does bind us up not to explore our inner selves and be free to walk in whatever we feel comfortable at the time. Don’t take on the dogma that you can’t be flexible with even in your own being and your own soul. Know that life is not about being tied down to one thing or one conviction but instead the beauty in the journey is to openly admit that you don’t have it all together and you probably never will be for each experience and growth you can be ok with being whoever you are whenever you are and at whatever place you’re at without explaining yourself to anyone.  It’s your process and it’s your journey and not everyone can accept you on every level you are and that is ok. Be ok with not everything being ok and at the same time trust the process of life because what I know for sure is that nothing in life stays the same and most of the time it even gets better. Love Jesus with your whole soul and let everything else fall into place...  #BeGoodToYourself 

Calling yourself out

Being stuck in a mindset or a flow that isn't

positive in the rhythm of your own natural being can cause your soul and spirit to become exhausted by the daily routines of the habits that you have created for yourself or have allowed to be invited and take root in your very being. I’m not talking about daily living and the price you pay of just being tired because you were birthed into this world but rather the betrayal of yourself. When you’re singing a song in your soul that has no tune or you have picked out a melody that isn't your own. What happens when you find yourself being allowed to impact the human consciousness of others and give the gift of liberation to someone else but you feel, ache and are drowning in agony over the exhaustion of constant enslavement by your surroundings; I think at some point you have to figure out how to readjust your surroundings so you can make the best impact for what your calling is and help to nurture yourself and put into others what God has given you.  Growing up my mother said to me all the time “the only thing constant in life is change”, I hated that statement then and I hate it now because I was an idealist in so many ways but the longer I live and row down the river of life I’m finding this to be truer than ever. But here is the gift in that statement and the gift in the journey while the only thing constant in life is change remember to take in the scenery and bless God for all the lessons that he teaches you along the way. Remember that all things are lessons that God would have you to learn, so stay classy and always pray and listen because they go hand and hand. #BeGoodToYourself

Too Much To Live For

It’s been a while since I have sat down and wrote anything because I have been so busy and really words haven’t come together in the correct sentences that I would have liked in order to rise from the pages and communicate my thoughts. I had to walk through some personal pain and just get through it every day by choosing not to have regret but rather to say, believe and receive this statement: All things are lessons that God would have us to learn regardless if they come to us uninvited or if we invite ourselves into uninvited places. The hardest part about being a teacher when it comes to anything but especially when it comes to spiritual issues is that you are required to live what you teach and to believe that what your saying is not just some get by quote that will make you feel better but rather it is absolute truth with an unchanging depth of honesty and reward.

I’m learning so much right now in my life and as I continue to step forward, move forward and embrace what I want to define me I am flowing in a rhythm unapologetically and without excuses. If it happens regardless of how it feels in the moment I say to myself “What is this here for” recognizing that there is a lesson in everything even if the lesson is to teach you disappointment from others behaviors. I am now trying to condition myself to pray for their depravity rather than allowing it to create bitterness in me. At the cross of Jesus we all die to everything about ourselves: Our views, our perspectives and most importantly our egos. What we want and think must die at the cross of Jesus in order for us to live. People may be able to try to make your physical comfort uncomfortable but remember no one can get in your mind. Your mind is where your imagination is allowed to be free and where your dreams are allowed to live fully without limitations. People, situations and life may try to break you down but remember all things are lessons that God would have you to learn. #BeGoodToYourself

You Played To Win... #BeGoodToYourself

Galatians 6:9 ..And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up…

Trusting in Jesus Christ understanding for your life may be one of the hardest journeys anyone of us must face especially when we are taking the first step down a new road of letting go and turning the unknown over to God. We have held on so long and it’s been so familiar that even in our moving forward or wanting to move forward we find ourselves nervous, anxious, worried or heartbroken over the thing that has caused us a lot of pain, misery and regret because the essence of our souls cry out to make or hope or want that thing to work out. We look directly at it and we know that it can’t work because the weight of carrying the load any further just might kill us but we know that if we walk away the lack of control that the other person, idea, movement, experience or feeling will die and collapse within itself. Here’s the truth: there’s no easy answers to putting our pain in recovery and moving forward. It’s going to hurt like hell, it’s going to make you cry, it’s going to knock you to the floor and many days you’re not going to want to go on because the dream you wished for so bad didn’t work out. While you will always have the scar of that ‘thing’ and while it’s hard to sit back and watch it die, move on or not be attached to you anymore know that your assignment in life isn’t over and you can dream again. I think the key in the early days is just to take it moment by moment without causing yourself anymore damage. The thing that was unhealthy that was a part of your co- dependency needs to be replaced with something that is healthy while you work through the entire process of letting it go and trusting God fully. Remember not being obedient to God is a sin, so if this thing in your life is not the perfect will of God in your life then you are being disobedient and if that’s the case then how will you ever know what real joy is and wouldn’t it be a tragedy to live your whole life and miss out on the very best that God has for you. I’m not saying it’s going to be easy at all, but let your obsession be redirected to your relationship with God rather than keeping it in the thing that you constantly have to question. Remember you gave it your all. Just like there are no guarantees in life, you can’t have any regrets because you played to win.

#KeepMakingJesusFamous

James 1:12 “Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life which God has promised to those who love him”

The letter of James in the New Testament is popularly known as the “Proverbs of the New Testament” because the book has practical, biblical, and Holy Spirit inspired wisdom that is given to the believers in order that they may hold fast and true to the glorification of the gospel of Jesus Christ. This letter is an early testament and could probably be argued as written within a decade after the ascension of the messiah. James encourages us in many biblical ways:  to control our tongue, submit to God’s will, and have patience and to live an authentic life for Christ. As the biological younger brother of Jesus he wants the reader to understand that to live for Christ is a wise decision and to stay active in your faith will produce spiritual fruits and will demonstrate your faith in action.

What we see in James 1:12 is that there are key fundamental biblical principles for the Christian walk that James breaks down for a person who is walking their own journey of Christian faith and also for the church at large as we walk together as brothers and sisters in Christ. First he says that the person who remains steadfast under trail will be blessed because that person refused to give up or be dismayed in the journey but rather kept their eyes and focus on Jesus Christ. See here is the thing as believers in the road of faith it will get difficult, impossible and the journey will a lot of times seem and feel like you’re on the wrong road but in those moments we must learn to fully trust the moving of the Holy Spirit to do his job and so when we are under trial we need to remain in the trust of Jesus’ care so we can be blessed. What we need understand fully is that being blessed may come during and from suffering but it will always result in the glorification of the Gospel and for our own personal good because Jesus can do anything but lie so if he tells us that if we remain steadfast we will be blessed then we must be willing to believe God even when it doesn’t feel or look that way.

The second part of this verse is key to because it gives us a bigger picture and it helps us as believers to look forward to heaven and our reward for the weary road of faith and it gives us assurance that what we endure will not be in vain. Listen faith is hard because you’re believing things that seem and look impossible but we have to be willing to trust the Holy Spirit. If you love Him, Jesus Christ, then we must be willing to give 100% as believers regardless of the results and you must know as a conviction in your personal self-constitution that NOTHING you do for the Lord is in vain.

My hope for you as you read this is first and foremost you would get over yourself and you would learn to die to your own personal gains in order to fully embrace and enjoy your service to the Lord because He alone has great plans for you as you grow and serve Him, you will love and know Him more and in that you will find personal fulfillment and joy. When we do that in our individual lives it will help us in our church lives because once we all realize that the only CEO is Jesus and that before Him we all are fully guilty then we will all be willing to work together and realize were all on the same team instead of working against one another. Your only calling in life is to make Jesus famous and if you get out of that lane then you will find yourself in a lot more trouble than you think. #MakeJesusFamous

Don't Miss The Boat

2 Corinthians 4:5 “For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake.”

As the apostle Paul continues his writing of the book of Corinthians he is facing several challenges in his ministry so he urges the church to be “unified” with him in his ministry because the opponents of the gospel were undermining his work claiming that his suffering proved he was not a true apostle. They didn’t understand that his suffering was a reflection of the gospel being glorified because every time Paul was persecuted he looked to Jesus Christ as his only help admitting, confessing and leaning on Him for total dependency.

Paul dedicates and emphasizes chapter four with a theme of unity throughout the sentences. He wants the church to understand basic Christian principles when it comes to ministry because he does not want people to get distracted by foolishness, pride, control or selfish behavior because he knows that pride comes before the fall and that anytime anyone takes credit for something done rather than giving Jesus all the glory then slowly the life will be sucked out of that ministry until the strong hands of wickedness choke and kill the dream that best proclaims the gospel.

“For what we proclaim is not ourselves”- in this statement here alone we need to note that all people are equal when it comes to ministry because everyone now knows that the work has nothing to do with them personally but everything to do with Jesus Christ alone and that nothing: no credit, no positions, no roles, ABSOLUTLEY NOTHING has to do with anyone but Jesus Christ. This is the vision statement so people are not confused on what the goal is because the only goal in any ministry that is biblical is to preach and proclaim Jesus Christ thus allowing the people to die to themselves and their ideas and to focus all the glory on Jesus Christ.

“With ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake”- as slaves and bondservants to the master, king, ruler and CEO of sovereignty we now confess and make it a part of our makeup as a person and put the foundation of our convictions and self-constitution as willing, obedient and joyous slaves to Christ in serving in ministry. We understand that we owe God everything and that without him we are nothing and in that we are satisfied with whatever and however he decides to focus his ministry. We lean on him for total control and we refuse to get caught up in the confusion and works of the devil through disobediences, pride, selfishness, slander and malice because all of that will lead to an end in the blessing of the ministry of the Church that he has called all sanctified believers to follow.

The bottom line is this once you get past the theological unfolding of terms, phrases and meanings the apostle wants the church to come fully together and be totally unified on every level because he knows that it is so easy to get distracted because every people is totally depraved and the depravity of each person’s life has the chance to show up and fall in line with the wickedness of the devil and take focus off of giving Jesus Christ the glory. So from the beginning he says get over yourselves, its not about you, its all about Christ and His glory. So if your going to sign up to be a billboard for Jesus understand that your imperfections may cause you the war if you allow them to while fighting the battle so understand the depth of your depravity and when you see your ego rising up bleed the blood of Jesus over yourself so you don’t allow yourself to get in the way of bringing all the glory to Jesus Christ alone. #BeGoodToYourself 

The Suffering Heart

At a certain point in life and maybe it’s several times in our lives we find ourselves pushing through an emotional issue that seems to have left us helpless in our feelings. The moment when you gave it all over and over again and you still saw no sign of life. In fact many times over you gave up your own life and happiness and allowed that to change the very nature of who you were; the unsecure pain of emotionless love left you lifeless, sullied, and damaged good. You discovered that your pride wasn’t as strong as you assumed and the walls of your strength weren’t as solid as you thought. Your teachings, writings and advice all came into your life to instruct you and you failed your own test. You were challenged at your core and instead of taking ALL of the lessons into effect you only brought one tool into battle because you now know you really didn’t want to see the truth. It’s hard when you have to admit to yourself that you didn’t want to see the truth because the distraction of the moment was keeping you from facing what was really going on inside of you and now you have to deal with the broken pieces of that course and the core of the sadness of the self-imposed betrayal. The only thing that I think you can do as you battle your new view of sadness because you will grieve the loss is give it time and give yourself time to heal. And as you walk through the valley of the shadow death call be honest with God and yourself as you turn over each new leaf so you won’t have to repeat the same mistakes again. Remember pain, regret, guilt and sadness are all apart of living and you’re not the first person to travel those roads and you won’t be the last to say “why did I do that”; but you can say to yourself “I will never do that again”….. Relax, Pray and Hope for the best… #BeGoodToYourself

Be Healed #BeGoodToYourself

Around 85 A.D. the apostle John writes a compelling book because he was convinced that people needed to believe in Jesus Christ. His own personal experiences, life lessons, struggles and joys had been a direct result of surviving through His personal relationship to Jesus Christ and the dedication he had to the ministry. His personal self-constitution was that Jesus Christ was the messiah and that ALL people needed to come to a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. An aspect of what John points out throughout his writings are the miracles of Jesus Christ and how he saw Him give people who were utterly hopeless confidence, grace, mercy and encouragement.

In chapter nine of the gospel of John we encounter one of my personal favorite stories of how Jesus interacted with his disciples and the people around him. Jesus and his disciples come upon a man who was born blind, and in spiritual ignorance the disciples ask Jesus a very interesting question; “Who sinned, this man or his parents that he was born blind”. Well note that the man was born blind so the answer to that question would clearly be his parents if the question had any validity at all. But what makes this story so interesting is two important factors: Jesus’ answer and the man’s response.

Jesus tells His disciples that it was not sin that caused for this man to be born blind; to live his life blind and to have the effects of a cruel world treat him poorly because he was blind but rather that the WORKS OF GOD might be displayed in him. Jesus is answering the “Why” question in this man’s life so that we who are still here and reading about this story centuries later can apply it to our own lives. The reason his suffering was attributed to his life was so that God may show himself to be real. So every time we sit around and wonder “Why God is this happening to me” we can know that somehow and some way it will be used for the glory of God if we are open to it, accept it and then appreciate it.

 To make a long story short the man was healed by Jesus in a unique way. Jesus spat on the ground and made mud with the saliva then he anointed the man’s eyes and told him to go to the river and wash his face and he would be healed. Jesus always has a unique, personal and specific way of doing the impossible in our lives if we are willing and open to it. After the religious leaders heard what had happened they begin to question the man and what had happened to him as if something was wrong because his healing took place on the Sabbath day when according to the law nothing was supposed to be done on that day. The zealous religious leaders had questioned the man and his parents and insisted on trying to make Jesus out to be a sinner but the second time that the asked the healed man to recount what had happened the man gives the most beautiful answer to their question that is wrapped up in powerful theology and personal reflection that we all can learn from. He says listen I don’t know why your questioning me again and I don’t know if this man Jesus is a sinner or not all I know is that my whole life I haven’t been able to see anything. I have been an outcast and I have missed out on seeing anything from the colors of the world to the faces of my family and now I can see, so call him a sinner or whatever you want to call him but I am healed and only Jesus Christ could do that.

At the basis of who we all are outside of the labels we identify in is broken sinners. We all have a part of us that is broken. We all have a chapter in our story that we wish didn’t take place but it happened. We all need a healing. We all need to be forgiven, loved, accepted and wanted. When Jesus meet this man and healed his sight that’s what he gave him. It was more than just opening his eyes it was loving his soul. Whatever it is today that your going

Jan 26, 2015

A lot of times we get thrown or place ourselves into situations that are challenging because what God is trying to do in us is bigger than ourselves. We are always looking for temporary pleasures in the flesh when God is instructing us to do, see, learn and feel more. What I know for sure is that each moment or season of life might not be joyful and at the same time might not be sad but yet it can be a blessing. So look around and observe what you’re supposed to and take the lessons that will increase your faith, experience and life.  #AllThingsAreLessonsGodWantsUsToLearn

Carved Out

Decisions are not always easy to make even when you have walked down that road before. Even when you have the facts, the truth and the pro’s vs. con’s list written out because for all of us if were honest there are some decisions that can only be understood by the heart and not explained from the mind. Its especially hard when you have to decide between bad and worse or happy and settled when deep down inside you want to hold out for joy. But what gets you to this place in the first place is you stop believing that it will ever come your way so you take the next best thing: happiness over joy. Pretending like your happy can be just as detrimental to yourself as emotional abuse because you are hiding behind a made up lie that you have allowed to take root in your mind. But then what if this thing can turn into something awesome, while you desire natural courses to take place, you have never been afraid of a little hard work. It’s a tough spot to be in and why you want to make all the right decisions, sometimes you just don’t know. I wish I had better advise for you today but all I can say is pray about it and you will know when you know and when that happens listen. #BeGoodToYourself

somewhere between my head and my heart

I think somewhere between my head and my heart rest the wisdom convictionsattributes characteristics that I need in order to not only survive but to thrive as it's hard to walk away from something that you were so passionate about its hard to stop loving something that you would have died for it's hard to know that what you know has been abandoned life is difficult and the more and more I traveled this journeythe more I realize how difficult it can be at times but what I know for sure is this that God is good and that he wants what's best for me and he wants what's best for you and if we keep praying and keep trusting and keep hoping that on the other side of the mountain there will be the land of milk and honey we too shall persevere we can't give up on each other we can't give up on humanity we can't give up on the righteous and the good things that are for life we have to keep finding it may not always come or look exactly how you wanted it to look but it would and will be the way God intended it to me recently I had to leave a position and I thought that my job there was to turn the ship around when really my job was and what God had called me to do was to get the sheep away from the wolves it was my duty and it is my duty to always shepherd tlthem to always love them answer always support them but the evil that existed was just too much to fight and what God called me to do was to show the truth put it on the table and to let the saved go to places where God could use them they could grow and they could enjoy their lives I'm not responsible for evil I'm not responsible for people who don't want to change I'm not responsible for things not turning out the way that I thought that they should have all I'm responsible for is to stay in my lane and to do my job and that is all you are responsible for as well so enjoy the ride of life work hard do your best pray and always be kind because remember we're all kids at heart just be nice to people and if people don't return it there's nothing you can do but you've done your part God Bless You God love you and I got a new phone so I'll be Voice typing a lot of my notes lol

Say Thanks #HaveHope

When reconciling your last experience and trying to come to a specific conclusion many times the only thing you can do is simply "Say Thanks". In that appraoch you learn to let go of what you thought should change or what you expected but didnt recieve. In that you learn how to let peace remove the need to know that will drive you insane. You thank the experience for what it taught you and for the people it brought your and even for the people that it removed from you because all things are lessons that God would have you to learn but you have to not only be willing to take the test but you have to be willing to do your best to pass it in order to show your faithfulness and appreciation for the journey. We all wish life "had stayed the same" but it didnt and thats the only thing you cant ever learn but can only experience. So hold on, smile and enjoy it because the good thing is nothing last forever not even the tears.... #HaveHope

#ChooseNow

Decisions come to us all the time. The decision to forgive, love, marry, accept, tolerate, pray, and simply live. Each step, each move, each choice requires some sort of action that calls you to be and do better. Growth is a good thing because it allows you to move, experience, sit in and saturate the new; the things you were holding out on and afraid of, it requires your soul to elevate. The reason we must love and embrace radical change is because we serve a radical God. A God who was willing to dress himself in human form, step out of the comfort of His created glorious heaven, walk on, in and with this sinful world and in the sovereignty of himself demand for the execution of his own life to be handed over and ransom for a people who hated him, would continue to deny him and who constantly reject him even as he calls us now.

We must be willing to come to a better, bigger, and more enjoyable place in our personal, individual and relationships with others because if we hold on to our history we do it at the expense of our destiny. God is calling all of us to follow his “Now Spirit” and to do what he is asking us to do in order for us to see the fullness of his glory; the only question is: Are you willing to do what is asked of you? #Amen    

Press The Refocus Button #Relax

 Sometimes in life we get busy, frustrated, confused and we don’t even recognize
chaos have come into our life. Life can get to you dealing with church, family,
friends, work and yourself can take a toll on a person and then you try to find
a way out it may seem overwhelming because life just doesn’t stop and it’s not
for the faint of heart. When this happens you need to find someone you can
trust with all of you and vent to them and hear and listen what they have to
say because sometimes what happens to you and around you can be too much to
bear alone. Don’t freak out when truth shows up and your door; actually welcome
it because it helps you to refocus your purpose in life. It’s nothing wrong
with not being ok sometimes, the problem is when you decide to stay in that
place of unrest. We all are taking long journeys and what needs to change is
that you need to say “Self it’s time to get to joy”…. Move forward, keep
praying and enjoy the new ride…

#ChooseJoy

Its Not For The Faint Of Heart #ChooseJoy

When Christ died for us what He alone did was offer us Himself. In Himself the charecter of Joy is created, held on to, understoond, and grasped. Our culture tells us to search for happiness but Beloved happiness is temporary and fleeting but Joy is eternal hope that is only found in the Salvation of the God of love. Joy tells you to look at God an...d not at your circumstances. Joy tells you to hold on even when you dont see the end result. Joy tells you that disapponitment, failures and even death have a purpose. In fighting depression, guilt, worry or anxiety those are things that the world puts out there that are contrary to the Joy that is found in Christ alone and that is why he has to be our hope and our foundation because without Him as the force behind all that we do we will fail spiritually, mentally and emotionally. Stay encouraged because God's best in Christ for you is Christ Himself. #ChooseJoy #KeepItMoving

Stand Out #WhatWillYouSay

Leadership requires that you have a lot of compassion, empathy and a deep love for the souls of the people you are ministering to. You can never get into a situation or find yourself in a situation where you are not leading with one of these traits especially in the midst of the storm. You can be in a storm without letting the storm be in you. You have to stay steady and enthusiastic about the mission you are on and you cannot forget what God told you in the light because in the dark you will need to hold on strongly to that revelation that Jesus told you. God gives you a vision because he knows that in your humanity you will need to be convinced that the toil is worth it because you will have to loose everything in order to gain more that what your imagination can hold. As you lead remember to be kind to everyone because everyone is fighting a battle they cant talk about, so in compassion remember that love will lead you all the way. Leadership is hard, difficult and at times the decisions you make will have causalities, but as long as you keep going you will be fine and remember the results will never look like you planned but they will always be better than what you thought. God Bless & #KeepItMoving

The Mike Brown Situation #PrayForStl

Why There Is No Peace Until There Is Justice #PrayForSTL


So as most of you, or all of you know I have been live and
in action when it comes to the whole Mike Brown case and I have been at many
rallies, peaceful and non peaceful, and most of the press conferences and
church services since the beginning and I will be attending the funeral. First
of all I did all of this so I can keep a honest report for all of my FB,
twitter and blog followers and I have stayed out of the marching but only to
sit on the side lines and video tape, interview people and see what the political,
media and civil rights leaders have to say.


Let me start off by saying this: it is my belief that the
only TWO people that have a dog in this fight are Mike Browns mother and father
because as I have repeated myself they are the only ones who have to put their
child in a box and then put him in the cold ground and if you have ever
experienced that 1st God Bless you and second you know that the
worst tragedy besides someone dying and going to hell because they don’t have a
relationship with Jesus Christ  (and I didn’t
say be a church member but if you’re looking for a church let me know) is to lose
a child. So that’s been my whole stance from the beginning and that is where I come
from so before you attack, comment or question anything that I am going to say
from here on out please note that this is my heart, soul and mind when I think
about the details that we know so far about this case.


6 bullets are aggressive and excessive for an unarmed man. I
can justify in my head two, and remember my late father worked at a jail and
his assignment was to break up fights and violent riots and I have seen videos growing
up of what the police had to do so I totally understand and support physical
force to stop a situation but 6 bullets I can’t justify in my own personal
head. For me after the two shots that connected in his side, that’s what the examiner
said the other day on the news,  I am
calling for back up immediately and then I am beating the suspect down because
any parent would rather have their child judged by 12 than carried by 6.


I think that the officer had high adrenaline in the moment
and it was not his intent in the moment to kill the young man, so that’s why I don’t
believe that he deserves to go to jail I just think he needs to sit down in
private room with his lawyer and the parents of Mike Brown and their lawyer and
explain to them what happened. I don’t think he needs a desk job after thinking
about it because personal experiences that happen to all of us affect us all in
some way, its human nature and we all would be lying if we said differently. I
think the city needs to buy his house and assist him in moving somewhere out of
the state and for him and his family to start over, life has plenty of “start over’s”;
I have had a few in my life, change is always comes to teach us something and
we can either be positive or negative about it, but it’s our choice and for the
safety of his family, that is the best option in my opinion. And for all of my
friends who are saying to me why are you not supporting the officer if you don’t
believe what he did was intentional, the answer is this because he is still
alive and his parents don’t have to bury their child and remember I am not
supporting Mike Brown because I saw the video tape of him robbing the store, he
clearly an aggressive person, but his parents are separate from him. My father
was a HORRIBLE parent to his child, me, but that does not reduce in any way my
continued prayers not only for myself but also for my grandparents who had to
put their baby in the ground 29 months ago. When it comes to being a bad parent
he was on the top ten list in history, he didn’t do his job in training me to
be a man, thank God for my grandpa, but I still have a broken heart for my
grandparents because his wrong against my soul doesn’t cancel their misery.


I applaud all peaceful protestors and all church and faith
leaders for leading the peaceful protest and while we may disagree with their
signs, chants, and opinions at least they are doing it without conflict or
violence and that needs to be applauded. And to all the officers, especially Johnson
we need to be appreciative of him and the other black and white officers who do
their job well. We even saw the other night a white officer hold up a gun to
protestors saying he was going to “Cuss Word” kill them and I applaud the city
for letting him go indefinitely the next day. Alderman French, Rev. Jones, Rev.
BoBo, Rev. BT Rice, Former Congressman Carnahan who I think should take another
run or at least support French 1000% in getting Congressman “No Show” Clay out
on the next election; all of these people need to be commended for their
leadership and so many more.


When it comes to the riots, the people who have robbed,
broken into and vandalized property this one statement sums up how I personally
feel: PUT THE DOGS ON THEM AND THEN PUT THEM IN JAIL WITH A FELONY FOR ROBBERY
AND A TEN THOUSAND DOLLAR BAIL! #JustMyView Because the bad people are making
the good people look bad and instead of talking about the grief of these two
parents were talking about idiots, instead of talking about all the good
businesses and coming to support them were talking about idiots. And for the
record I am not just talking I went to the shoe carnival that was broken into
the other day and spent $100 and thanked them for staying in business in the
community.


Also I do believe that the Country Prosecutor does need to
step aside in the case because a young black man killed his father and I am
just not convinced that in a high profile case like this you can put your
personal views aside because when you lose a parent to a tragedy it changes
you, trust me on that one. So I think that governor Nixon should hire two women
one black and one white and have them take over the case because then no one
can say in whatever decision is made it is based on race or gender, that’s just
my way of avoiding problems later on and even have the black one be a
conservative and the white one be a liberal, let’s try to eliminate all bad
press ahead of time.


I also want to encourage everyone to register to vote and to
vote in every election, I hear so many people say I don’t vote because I don’t want
to get called for Jury Duty, just tell them you believe in the death penalty, that’s
what I do it works every time lol. But please if you want things in your city
to change, then vote. They even send you a card with your voting place on it
and the date of the election so go and vote!!!


When it comes to Race in America let me say this I was
raised by my parents and grandparents to treat people how they treat you, I
have people in my life who have the same blood running though their veins that
treat me worse than an enemy, so it’s not about social class, race, gender or
even religious background for me, it’s about how you treat me. I have Muslim, LGBT
Community, atheist, liberal and all kinds of friends, Yes I am always telling
people “get to Jesus” but I am never rude about it and I love all of my friends
and I just don’t believe in tolerating people I believe that true maturity happens
when you can accept people right where they are, Jesus taught thatJ! Because that is what
he did; Jesus didn’t say go get right first then come to me he said “Anyone who
calls on the name of the Lord Shall be Saved”. I am a young black pastor of a
majority older white church and our secret is the Jesus. At the cross were all
sinners in need of a savior and we take the time to get to know one another. I
am 6’3 240 pounds and young and black with my own swag. The world says that doesn’t
work but our church shows it works everyday because I have people who were born
before blacks and women could vote, still while the KKK was a dominate force in
America, before interracial marriage was legal, before Brown Vs. The Board of
education; who call me Pastor Robert. Don’t tell me the world can’t change, don’t
tell me there is no hope, don’t tell me that it doesn’t happen because my
church is on the front lines leading it every day.


So the question is how did we do it? And the answer is we
got to know each other and daily are getting to know each other. We worship,
pray, talk and get to know each other. We have liberals, conservatives, and
people from different religious backgrounds in our church and we get together
every Sunday and we say “Hey I’m a sinner, o wait you’re a sinner too… Perfect let’s
get to Jesus”.  When the world finds
common ground and realizes we all have our prejudices and “sacred cows” and all
of us have idols that get in the way of our hearts being fully pure and just
simply get to Jesus no matter what else you believe then and only then will we
see any lasting movement because God is everlasting all by himself. So more
importantly let’s call it what it really is not a race problem a sin problem.
Blacks and whites will always be different just like men and women. I didn’t know
what green bean casserole was until I went to college and I’m still trying to
teach some of my white friends how to do the eclectic slide (that was just a
joke, yall know I don’t dance- LOL). The point is our difference should bring
us together and say I want to know what that is or try that or experience that
and not tear us apart. I might not make it a part of my daily routine but the experience
will make my life better. That is what we all should be striving for because
life is a journey, not a destination.  Pray
for our city, Pray To Jesus and May God Have mercy on us. Let’s continue to
pray for the people who have to put their kid in a box and in the ground, that
is our responsibility as people who believe in something bigger than us. Also
my final point in this for all born again baptized people, if the world will
come out by the thousands to rally for a death, what do you think can happen if
we effectively tell the world about a death that gave them life #JustSaying J… OK God Bless, be nice
in your comments, I am not looking for approval or an argument this is just my
view of what’s gone on so far… #PrayForSTL

Martin, Malcolm, Bobby, John, Rosa, Coretta, Dorthy... Why We Need To Pray For STL #GodHearsPrayers

Maybe you have forgotten or even more realistic maybe it wasn't taught accurately or imprinted on the hearts, souls and minds of the next generations of those who where to come. Just because you didn't boycott, sit, stand, protest, march, or have to suffer doesn't mean you don't carry the weight, responsibility and blood on your hands. Martin was murdered for standing up for freedom, Malcolm was shot in cold blood in front of his family for changing his position, Bobby was struck down because people didn't like how he was merging the races together, John was murdered in cold blood because of his unwillingness to compromise, Rosa was put in jail because she just wanted to be treated with fairness, Coretta put aside her grief and marched on anyhow, and Dorthy carried the torch until she witnessed for herself "Yes We Can". As a black man 365 days a year for the last 29 years and a proud black man I am disgusted with the events of tonight in the city of STL. What has not been focused on is that a mother has to put her child in a box and then put him in the ground. I think of my own mother and how if the events of this last week had been her child she wouldn't have wanted this chaos to over shadow her heart break rather she would have wanted you to tell her how much of a positive influence her baby had made in your life. This mother will never again see his face, touch his skin, or smell his fragrance. And more importantly a soul has had to come into judgement in the presence of a Holy God. We have a racial problem in this country and we are seeing a glimpse of it played out in STL tonight; the truth is we have a sin problem that corrupts the soul of this great nation. But more importantly and really the only thing that matters to me is that we see the consequences of a lost, sinful world, and a generation that doesn't know Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior. We are all SINNERS and no persons sin is bigger or worse than another persons sin so what we have to do is focus on the only thing that can help us try to strive to be better people and that is real Love. Real Love comes through knowing Jesus Christ more each day and when we acknowledge that we need to get over ourselves and we need to let truth ring loudly and freedom penetrate every area of our nation; only then will we be able to have real, lasting and mind changing results. We have taken prayer out of our schools and expect for kids to have self worth, fathers have abandoned the homes and we expect for boys to know how to be men and for girls to know what leadership and virtue are really about, we have a society of grandparents that are raising their grandchildren and we expect kids to know their value and importance, and we have sugar coated Jesus Christ as truth and now for tolerance sake calling the divine "the universe" so we don't offend people.  Well I am over it and tonight it has hit our very own backyards and the "chicken of evil" has come home to lay it's egg and all of the political correctness and sensitivity has left us with "bad yoke" on our faces.
I am saying this as a young black minister of the gospel of the good news, that it is time now that we bring moral, ethics and biblical truth back into our communities and we teach people how to live a life that is acceptable, loving, kind and caring; otherwise know that this is just the beginning of destruction to our very own community. The picture is bigger than black and white or poor verse the police. I have been raised all of my life with white people, all of the schools I went to where majority white but my fifth grade year; all of the churches I have been on staff at have been majority white, and my father worked at a prison most of his life so I know about the police system.
This has to do with the sin sick souls of a generation that doesn't have a moral compass and people of faith have to get out there and stop being timid or scared of being called "whatever" and present the good news that God is love and that Jesus can save you from sin and yourself and that when hard things happen in life and in this community that you can push through it. I am tired of people whining and complaining about a system when the majority of people don't vote their hearts and beliefs and then sit down and complain about it. People in STL county complain about change but they let Charley Dooley who was doing a great job and was the only black leader to show up tonight to try to calm people down get voted out last week. Where is Lacy Clay? Where is Rev. Nance? Where is Rev. Bobo? Where is Rev. B.T.Rice? Where is Darlene Green who is the longest serving black official in the this generation of STL? Where is Rev. Jones? Where is Alderman Reid? Stop complaining and vote or sit down and be quiet because you just let a great American be kicked out of office because you didn't show up to the polls and now you want to complain and yet he still showed up for you....
I'm tired of the nonsense in our very own community. And instead of taking a positive note we are making ourselves look like animals and the devil is winning and getting joy out of this terrible situation.
What we need to do is let the investigation take place, pray for the mother who has to put her child in the ground, and come together and say what's really going on and how do we get to the root of the problem. I could have easily been a statistic. Divorced home, alcoholic father, six different schools in my life; but the difference was this: the church was the center of my life. My life wasn't fair, but who's is? But because biblical truth was put in me, eventually the fruit of the labor blossomed and now I see that everything that showed up on my doorstep to my heart was to help me to have empathy, understanding and compassion for people and that is where I operate from when ministering to a lost and dying world. I am just one beggar trying to tell others where I found eternal food and His name is Jesus. Its a personal relationship not based on yourself but rather on God's grace and His mercy. So with all the horrible worldly events that have happened tonight let us remember this in this moment and hour of horrible destruction: that all things are lessons that God would have us to learn so what we must do is learn from this moment, join together in prayer and make sure we are training our boys to godly men and our girls to be biblical women; this isn't about the shooting or the death of a young man, beloved, the picture is so much bigger this is about a generation that is starving to be raised in truth, because we can clearly see the consequences of neighborhoods, communities, cities, states and a nation that don't have Jesus Christ as the center of its compass... #KeepItMoving #GodBlessSTL #PleasePrayForThisGeneration

Singleness Is Not A Disease

“Hope for love, pray for love, wish for love, dream for love…but don’t put your life on hold waiting for love.”

In January my grandparents will celebrate 55 years of commitment through biblical marriage to one another and as sit back and watch them and how they operate I am amazed at the grace of God and how he shows them how to daily give grace, understanding and strength to one another. Their marriage has been my front row seat to what commitment to just one person really looks like mentally, physically, emotionally and yet keeping their own identity and embracing the fact that some part of the other person resides in the whole picture of who they are as a person. It’s about daily forgiveness and liking a person more than you express romantic love to them. Most of my seminary friends got married while we were in college and while I was never the first person to sign up for a relationship, at each wedding or when I found out someone was engaged I hoped the best for them but was never envious of what they had because I knew for me I never wanted to be married in the abstract just because everyone else was doing it or because I was getting older and it was the “normal” but rather I wanted to be married to someone: their whole personality, their whole being and all of them on the good and bad days. I believe in biblical marriage and I fully support it and think it’s the best choice emotionally, physically, financially, and mentally; it just hasn’t happened for me yet. Marriage takes a lot of compromise and sacrifice in everything that you do,  you have to not only think about how it will affect the other person but you have to be excited from your soul to want to bring pleasure to that person. I don’t want us single people to look at our current state as bad or rush into marriage because we want to “fit in” or “be normal”. For me my life as never been conventional or normal according to the unspoken rules of society. My life has always had a twist to it and I’m ok with that now, it took me a minute to get there if I’m honest but looking back, all of the things that seemed broken to me were not broken they were just different stones on my path to finding my place in God’s ministry. Those unique situations helped me to come to an understanding that being right where I am today is right where I am suppose to be. Don’t long for love when you can love yourself by viewing yourself through what God says about you and if you don’t know what he says about you then pick up His book and read it (The Bible); Starting with John 3:16. You're loved, you're enough and you're perfectly planned the way he wants you to be, yes we should always be striving for more, but the more is him and not what this world thinks. Again marriage is a good thing, relationships are a good thing, but if its not meant to be for you right now in this time of your life don’t stress or worry about it, what it means is that your suppose to be putting your energy into something else at this moment and remember you don’t want to just settle because your lonely, you want someone to want to be with you, to cherish your time, to appreciate you, and to love you unconditionally and if that person cant or wont then RUN away with the quickness because you were created for so much more. Don’t be in a relationship or get married just because it’s a trend “well everyone else it doing it”; no you focus on what God wants you to do and be happy for those who he has blessed with a spouse because it’s their time and wait on your time and if it never comes, that’s ok too because what God’s plan for you will be perfect. Stop trying to change God’s plans for your life and enjoy the journey your on now because this is the life you were given so celebrate it and celebrate God’s personal individual Love for you; Remember Life is not a rehearsal this is the show: everyday, every minute, every second; so look at how your performing and focus on that!!! … #LoveYa #KeepItMoving