Saturday, July 23, 2011
"Believe you can and you're halfway there"
The truth lies in the discovery of not being afraid to make the change or to take the next step. It’s the mysterious that scared us and the unknown that paralyzes us but if we don’t grow and don’t move on then we will have missed out on what was created for us. We can beat ourselves up for a moment but then we must move on. We either can settle for where were at or we can see what’s behind door number 1, 2, 0r 3. But at some point for every dreamer you’re going want to pick the door or live with the regret the rest of your life that you didn’t step out and take the one chance. My sister whit was counseling me last night and the gift she gave me was to walk in my own truth. Whatever defines it or whatever I call it; just to walk in it. So my gift to you is to move on and forgive yourself. You cant change the past and you cant make up for what you didn’t know at the time. So today change your thinking and move on. Face each day as it comes because tomorrow has enough problems of her own. My lesson today is: not to have so much self hatred and to move on.
Friday, July 22, 2011
What is happiness? What is Joy? What is peace? What happens to a person when they are stripped of everything and stuck so low that they almost don’t want to be found? Your soul is desperate your mind is confused and your heart is empty. You long to be loved and the pain and guilt of the past has overcome you so terrible that you don’t know where to start all you can do is open your mouth and say help. I am scared because I don’t know what’s on the other side but I know I have to take the risk. Get to the heart of the issue.. what is wrong with me… why am I completely and totally self destructive in every area of my life…. Why do I choose to go right when the map says left… I am scared to death but if I don’t move now I will loose everything… Pray for me on this journey and I will keep you updated… Day one… I don’t know what else to do but to loose everything and hope to gain some peace of mind…